Word Verification is ON

Sorry family, friends and other random but earnest people I just had to turn on word verification. This site got about 6 comments in 20 minutes and some were random and everyone linked to some weird website...It's starting to seem like spam. Either way hope I didn't incommode all you too much chids. Enjoy

Colin

The Latest:

• We shall Leave September 3, 2005 from Santa Fe, NM traveling to New York, NY on a Greyhound!
• We have decided to visit Morroco, Africa! --no visa's required for our stay :)
• I will travel to the Isle of Skye and visit the Dunvgean Castle, The McLeod Clan Castle!
• Hoku's Rich! Alex has rapped me in funds! I am in third! ARGH....
• Sylvan is amazing...god bless (505)438-0820!!!
  
• I have 5 days left of work! (AAH! I got sick again, Aug 25)
  
• Were camping out in Abiquiu this weekend on Basil's land! It's beautiful!

Alright, that is about it for now!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ISA!

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday dear isa, happy birthday to you.

hope you enjoy this as much as i have ;)

Elated Bliss

It’s incredible the feelings that can be created from everyday societal interactions. The emotions aroused from one glance of the eyes, to a subtle smile that can caress the surroundings of a candle light room or a hustling café and amidst the serenity or the chaos driving a steak of emotions straight to your heart.

When the sensation arises you feel a thrashing serenity rumbling inside you. A whirlwind of emotions chaotically driving higher and higher, like the world is spinning and you're on top laughing away; you feel ecstatic and exulting. Standing there defenseless, with only words of personal greetings to return as endearment, feeling the power of her eyes gazing deeply into mine she begins to pierce the soul. The feeling comes as a tumultuous force hurdling over any obstacles of emotional repression. Any sorrow, suffering or pain promptly dispelled like sunshine hitting a crystal stone.

Submersing in her mannerisms that exude delight and ardor I become enraptured. All the while employment continues to call from 359 degrees around me, to that one degree I surrender. I surrender to her and the sensation she confers, only to say goodbye once again and return to the callings of Dominic's customers.

-= This event took place on July 26th, I believe. I wrote this shortly after, and have been modestly revising here and there since then. Hoku asked I post this on MySpace.com (as a joke), I feel that to be sacrilegious to my writing and myself so I decided against it. Thoughts and feelings have occurred that might warrant a follow up to this writing, one that may detail any fallacies, facades or specious desires that have find their way into my feelings or understanding. That’s not to say I was wrong in feeling what I felt, just I was possibly naïve. =-

Confusion

July 17th-18th, 2005:
once upon a time anonymous said "You're a fag, bro"
later anon said "But you're still a fuckin' fag." after i replied "yea but im 70% straight."

Aug 14th, 2005 (a couple hours ago):
Anonymous said: "Thanks for taking the time to set up this blog." and "Hey, you have a great blog here! I'm definately going to bookmark you!" in-between discussing adoption agencies and wooden nickels.

merely hours later
KronLeo who was unfamiliar to me until today said: “this goes out to anon: you are one seemingly pathetic human being...You think alot of Colin and surround yourself with Colin and its almost sad...alas, colin is beautiful. he is beautiful."

This has all come as quite a shock to find on my blog coupled with some strange phenomenon’s with the internet, my computer and Google.
I must look objectively and that is not hard to do seeing I have no knowledge of who this people are so bias is more difficult.

Anonymous....it is possible there are more then one "anonymous" people posting on my blog. With much certainty i say that the July 17th incident was probably Hoku's posting, this I am quite sure of, seeing how the blow was literally two or so days old and Hoku would say that for kicks.

Now the Aug 14th "Anonymous" comment appears to be someone unrelated to me in any way. His comments are brief and flummox. It is also possible his two comments posted within 22 minutes of each other are different people. A difference it does not appear to make either way. This comment could have been made by Hoku.

well what do I determine...
I have a seemingly random guy sticking up for me on my blog by telling off the anonymous posters who diss on me which were most likely Hoku, my friend whom I’m living with and plan to travel with for 10 months along with Alex in 4 weeks.

Reading all this was quite the jovial time.
Have a nice night
, Peace

Life and it's Infinite Driving Force

Hello good friends and random people I will never meet. How is your life going? For me, I must say life is quite nice at this moment. I’m happy (spoken like josh shelvin) and there isn't anything to complain about. I’ve been having some amazingly stimulating debates/discussion about emotions and how to properly deal with them with my becoming quite quickly good friend sylvan, which is too much effort to discuss here.

I've been finding myself victim of confusion...there are some people that are highly difficult to understand what their feeling or thinking (possibly about me). Normally I would ask these people and save myself the trouble, but this situation requires that I just go about it the subtle-just-let-it-be and it-will-only-happen-then way, which is quite an exercise on my part. I’m sure I could be putting my time to better use, like perhaps finishing Ayn Rand's atlas shrugged, but meh...

we have approximately 4 weeks until Hoku, Alex and I leave from New York to London to begin our ten month odyssey. I just bought my backpack in Portland last week, when I went to my family reunion at the beach in southern Oregon, and I’m very *shelvin style* happy, was able to see some good old friends, and spend good time with my family before I leave their sights for a long time.

It just occurred to me that I should write more happy poems, most of mine are less than joyful, though were still very therapeutic.
I'm sick now and am not respecting my fever contained body by going and playing ULTIMATE FREESBIE in the park with friends. Its fun, you boring people should try it. It’s also a great form of exercise.

Well I love you all, even the people i dislike...if you can understand that, kudos to you!

Hey Grandpa Dan McLeod,
I love you immensely, I know your enjoying yourself wherever you are. thank you for all the incredible things you taught me, the beauty in death and a deeper understanding of it, the care you gave to everyone you met, to name a small handful or breaking it down awfully simple. Your love and kindness has affected the world in a most positive way. I miss you greatly, but it's not holding me back any.

I bid you good friends and grandfather adieu.

"Breathe Deep and Be Happy"
"Some trees are tall, some trees are small, but each has it’s own beauty." ~ Dan McLeod

,Colin