Something Snazztastic

Well im STILL in Mumbai, Bombay, Somewhere in India, On the other half of the world, Outside the USA, On a different planet, In Existence. Though So are you.

Dont be to shy everybody were all amounting to the same energy. you can divide and color eachother as much as you want but "God doesnt deny you" - OSHO

Well fuck i just wanted to add something: but you should go to the bottom

Mumbai is paying off. In Fun, In Money, In unexpected experience. I've been doing the extras in movies and commericials things as a mocked white guy for indians lately, as your all well aware. I may have commented facietiously on me becoming a rising star but slowly it is taking place. I, Colin Mcleod will be feat. in an advertisement for Chewing gum (Dental Cleaning) in an Italian Magazine come a few months. ludicrious i know, but it was fun. the fun beat all the other funs in this business. it started with a cellphone camera taking my picture and sending it to the big wigs of this photoshoot. well they liked my face. they liked it so much they decided to make me the star of the advertisment. BAAM BOOTY!

It Goes something Like this.

A couple days ago i arrive on set Location somewhere between Andari and the Mumbai Airport. it was a Shanti Set. The Shantiest i've ever been (Peace is Shanti) we they hauled in around 5-6 white people for the shoot. the set was an airplane. they were building half an airplane. WOW! and taking pictures of the seats. WOW! ok thats boring.

But They held food for us. Never in this business have i received breakfast in the morning only lunch and snack in the afternoon. usually its because we get there at 9am much too late. but they held the break fest for us specially until we arrived. AND IT WAS GOOOD. LOTS AND LOTS AND LOTS of GOOD FOOD. i was blown away. normally theirs so many people that you can only have like one portion and then it goes. also you have to deal with the indian idea of Lines---HEHE. here was so nice and peaceful we got our breakfast got our Chai (note this was the best CHAI i've had in india or close too), and there was always chai, chai and coffee. never had trouble getting some chai. in the bollywood industry its an ordeal to procure some chai. they gave our chai in glasses. so big cups of chai too. wow. then we sat around and chatted and rested and lounged and relaxed for awhile while they finished building the set. the gave us chips and cookies then BROWNIES. like homemade TASTY brownies. which was the weirdest thing to see in india. Brownies that were way good and not from barrista's. then they served us lunch. we hadnt done anything all day so we were all full on breakfast and brownies. ooooh its good to be full on tastyness. this set was air conditioned to the max. like nice and cool. the set completly beat every other set ive been on.
The people were so nice and relaxed. when on bollywood set everybody is moving constantly, the vibe is very frazzled and rushed. you also have the star syndrom. everybody changes their attitudes a few notches when you have big stars on location. when theres no one big and only a couple people for the shot its quiet and peaceful. so were chilling and laughing with the producers.
THEN
they got me changed. that had sent me to a tailor for measurements. they went out and bought nice new clothes just for me (i kept the sexy yellow t-shirt)

AND NOW

Im sitting in the middle seat on this sexy hot airplane. when your looking to the window you swear your headed to the sun. Your blind and your on fire when you look at/touch it. luckily for me i had a FAT indian guy on my right side that took all the heat. unluckily for me He was really fat, and an equally if not larger fat guy was sitting on my other side. They were squishing me in. this was the point.

It went something like this. These two fat FAT guys are so fat, so sleepy, and so unconcerned with my comfort that i cant actually get up to go to the bathroom to BRUSH MY TEETH. Luckily i have (insert Brand name i've never heard of) Chewing Gum to clean my teeth for me on this (assumingly) LONG plane ride.

YEP! and Im PIST OFF and Grumpy and irritated that these fat guys are fat and sitting on me. it was alot of fun. the fat guys were awesome. we just joked and laughed the whole time. they put makeup on me which was crazy. i looked like a girl. cus girls wear makeup and it was weird. so for like 1hour 1/2 i got to make faces at the fat guys while the took like 300 photos positioning everyone and everything.

So my italian friends when i find out what magazine it is. you'll be the first to know and see me COLIN IN ITALY!

Then i met a guy. this Guy is named manish. Manish is a new to the business of Film Directing. But i like him. hes a good guy, a nice guy. and he has casted me in his new movie titled:

"Love Story"

Directed By: Manish Tiwary

A young college fresher, Apu – bored with his life in college in Delhi – takes on his best friend's challenge if he can have sex with 3 women in a day. The women that Apu finds himself attracted to range from a prostitute, to a virgin, to a rich model. As our protagonist searches for women he can love, what is explored are the very nature of friendship, male bonding, voyeurism, sexual perversion and love.

Synopsis:

The film is set around students in Delhi University. Through two university hostellers, Apurv, a rich cosmopolitan guy and, Sanjay, an old-fashioned Bihari guy, the film juxtaposes the 'new' and the 'old' in our society. Sanjay represents the romantic and the idealist who has steadfastly pursued goals using conservative means. On the other hand, Apurv's life is directionless. He is a modern day skeptic who between the two ways to know love – emotional and carnal - chooses the latter. The three female leads, that of a prostitute, a school girl and a rich model are intricately used not only as love interests of our heroes but also to have the viewers chart a range of emotions. This film uses a rich ensemble of characters, stories and themes to aptly reflect the mood of urban India.

Apurv has just started his college life in Delhi. To avoid the harsh hostel ragging, he spends a few nights in the city's red-light area. Here, he is introduced to Vaisali, an attractive but sharp-tongued prostitute. Apurv joins the hostel residents in a grand yet eerie celebration of the final day of ragging. He is introduced to the hostel's band-of-boys: Sanjay, a popular presidential candidate in the upcoming college elections, Sonu, an energetic loafer and a Sanjay loyalist, Deepak a visually-impaired hosteller with homosexual leanings, and Mark, an indophile American.

Apurv, more relaxed now, begins to discover life in the hostel, college and neighbourhood. However, lectures in the college have little exciting to offer. He remains bored and pensive, and looks for a challenge that could make his life more exciting and meaningful. In the neighbourhood Apurv meets a school-going girl, Kintu whom he wants to befriend while she coquettishly remains noncommittal. He also continues his visits to Vaisali at the kotha. Apurv's major preoccupation is trying to find women he can love.

In the background, rages the politics of college election complete with student gang wars and Sanjay's maneuvers for the presidential slot. Here enters Prerna Heerjawahar: a hot and rich girl with beauty crown aspirations. Sanjay's charismatic performance in a loud street fight ensures Prerna's fascination for Sanjay. Soon the ambitious duo becomes the odd pair on the campus.

Meanwhile, Apurv has made a limited headway with Kintu – she will allow him to come along for a movie, share a cigarette and an odd kiss. Kintu's ex-boyfriend, Rajesh finds this unpalatable and beats Apurv up. Sanjay's gang avenges this. The same evening, Rajesh is dragged out of his house and brutally pulverized. Apurv can now deal with the 16-year old Kintu at peace. However, Kintu's mother with middle-class values intact ensures that the progress remains slow. Apurv's other interest, Vaisali has proven to be more than a handful. She remains brazen and offensive. Apurv decides to try seducing her into submission – taking it as a sign for a prostitute falling in love.

At a party (-turned-orgy) at Prerna's farmhouse, Apurv hits off with a new girl. The smooth seduction makes Sanjay admire the easy charm Apurv has with girls. The next day, sitting in an old monument, Sanjay challenges him, if he can have sex with 2 women on a single day. The quiet of the place and his own confidence prompts Apurv to say, "Yes, I can". Sanjay throws another bait, "Can you do 3 women in a day?" Apurv answers in negative, but now he has finally got a challenge he wants to live up to. The task carries both a visceral and a symbolic meaning for him. Apurv spends the rest of the film pursuing this goal. For Sanjay, the race for the college elections too has heated up. He is the top seeded candidate but has got two popular and powerful rivals to beat. The film now moves towards a volatile climax. For all the indulgence and decadence that Apurv thinks he can afford, someone now needs to pay a price.

Love Story explores the very nature of friendship, male bonding, voyeurism, sexual perversion and love. This original screenplay full with realism and black humour shows the coming of age of not only a young man but also the social codes & mores of Delhi.

you now understand that i am Mark. Mark....well i dont know a whole lot about him but i do know this.

He's Perceived to be a Pimp by indian societal Standards...that is to say he always has a girlfriend. he starts the movie with one. and everyone thinks my GF is "easy" because shes dating me/im dating her. indian men think white women are sluts and put out. thus you can see the connection to a indian women who dates a white man.

well she dumps me because i hit on her aya (spelling--House maid) then i get a new one. well i have some lines but i havent looked at them. in the business you dont memorize lines before hand. you memorize them the day of or the scene of.

i'll be shooting for 13 days starting may 13 in Dehli at one of the university's.

I also will be in an Implied Sex Scene. and a scene where my GF kisses my naked shoulder and says i love you. i also asked to make sure that i would not be in any gay scenes. he said the deepek wont be kissing me. GOOD. though i wont be kissing any women either. thats still taboo in films.
but this film is pushing india's society this is not bollywood its low-budget and independent.

Ill enjoy it bundles

My ipod has broke. im trying to fix it right now. but it looks like i have to reformat it and lose ALL my music. fuckles. oh shitty shits
sighs yesterday-today im okay with it, cus theres no other way to be.


Yes adding something now april 20. like dude I figured out what Yawns are. for like the last 4 years i've been yawing at wierd times, times when i an consioucs or accept somehting or do somthing i dont want to do. i've never been able to really peice together the meaning of it all. and i've been anaylizeing it for like 4 years. but i was drinking with my indian friend in andari, mumbai the other day (before i left) we were riding home in the rickshaw with women in the middle (not important) and i YAWNED. then it hit me. the realization of a yawn is this. Yawning is silence. Im gonna do some research into it. but i've noticed this for awhile and put it together. everything becomes quiet when you yawn. your mind dissapears cant think extraneaous thoughts(harder too), your hearing is limited quite substantially. bassically all your senses are dampered. and you kinda like freeze, your not breathing either. so yawning is silence. a connection with our divine creator. a connection to your soul, so beautiful it talks to you too. in the morning i took it a step further and compared yawning with Samahdi (the Breatheless state of meditation). totally cool yeah. yeah. im sexing northwards....hahahaha -end addition

aaah no-yes...its completly FUCKED. I cant even reformat it. aarhhh

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